eclipsed.

i just wish you'd understand.

you went like an arrow.

and you haven't come out on the other side.

the amsterdam chainsaw massacre.

fashiongonerogue

the fact that there is a crisis is not a reason to stop creating beautiful, extreme things

by viktor & rolf.

i sat on the roof and i kicked off the moss.

I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is, now that you're in the world
- Moulin Rouge

well, i thought i should let you know that yours are the sweetest eyes i've ever seen -- and i haven't forgotten about them yet.
:)

.

you can't love something you've never had.
you can't lose something you've never had.
you can't miss something you've never had.

the best things are those you've never had.

LOVE.

love isn't blind--it's just stupid.

love is selfish and selfless at the same time. its utter selflessness is what makes it selfish. it desires only to please and protect--and it won't stop, whatever the cause. it hears no reason, it sees no logic. it plows on, bruised and bleeding, on and on. through tears and blood, even though we scream for it to stop, it plows on and on.

love is stupid. it knows nothing is waiting on the other side. it knows that logic and reason order it to stop. it knows that there is no chance, no possibility of reciprocation. and yet it plows on and on. through tears. even though we scream for it to stop.

s/s '10

related to my previous post: we're welcoming the spring/summer 2010 ad campaigns!

i'm disappointed with the versace and jean paul gaultier ads. i was expecting something really edgy from them, but they turned out kinda blah. marc by marc jacobs is okay, but i guess it's just not my taste.

miu miu - lindsey wixson by mert and marcus

fendi - anja by rubik karl

alberta ferretti - constance, dorothea, hanne, and kasia by steven meisel

i was surprised that i didn't get to see as much lace, frills, and pastels on the ads, because i was of the impression that those are supposed to be the main theme for this season. so far, the only ad that really meets my expectations is alberta ferretti's. and, although i wasn't expecting it, miu miu's 60s feel is also interesting.

well, let's just hope their collections are more satisfying :)

25 random thoughts.

my friend and fellow blogger windi asked me to do this. so... voila:

1. babies smell so good -- when they're not puking
2. i really, REALLY want to go somewhere hot and sunny and beachy
3. who says topknots look stupid? they're practical and easy to pull off
4. i still can't believe brittany murphy's gone :(
5. hey you, maybe now you know how it feels to be ditched with no obvious reason
6. i had you, and now i have to lose you
7. seven is never my lucky number
8. keep playing, and someday you'll lose
9. i used to think that I'd get a letter from Hogwarts when I turn 11
10. most of the S/S '10 designer ad campaigns are disappointing :(
11. only 3 more months of high school! yay or nay?
12. why do we want things we will never get?
13. time is the surest doctor. it is also the surest assassin
14. i totally screwed up my math tryout
15. my facebook has been really quiet these past few days
16. tu es doux, monsieur! well, you were.
17. your head is not there for decoration -- use it.
18. i would never, ever fall for a guy like Mr. Rochester. what was Jane Eyre thinking???
19. what was I thinking???
20. if sarcasm had calories, i would be beyond obese by now
21. let's go to bali. we'll go clubbing all night, have some serious fun, and fall asleep on a heap at the beach. woohoooo
22. after we make it through this hell, of course
23. what about making an 'i want' list? you know -- to get my priorities straight
24. a bowl of vanilla ice cream with hot fudge on top. yum.
25. why only 25? my thoughts are so random i could do this all day

high school: the real fairytale.

living a high school life is like dreaming a really long dream. for some, it's a fairytale. for others, it's a nightmare.

for three years, teenagers are trapped in this place, comparable to, perhaps, an asylum, a zoo, or a snow-globe -- a miniature of the real world. just as fierce, but run not only by rules and social hierarchy, but by that element of chaos: hormones. like an asylum, it's a madhouse of crazy people: crazy in love, crazy for fun, crazily lazy, crazy for grades, and the plain crazies, which are the very few really normal people. like a zoo, it's full of contained animals (Homo teenagersus) ready to run amok once the latch is opened, snapping into frenzy at feeding time: gossip, or lunchtime -- or both. like a snow-globe, it may look pretty at first, but all it takes is a little shake for everything to fall out of place.

basically, high school will either toughen you up or break you down. whichever it turns out to be, it will be like a slap at the back of your head. if you get away unscathed (HOW did you do it???) you're either abnormally lucky, or you're a social genius. if you emerge battered, scratched, and bruised, well--just get ready for the real thing.

either way, whether you're Cinderella or the misunderstood Big Bad Wolf, you might want to call your very own Fairy Godmothers to give your messed-up life a little magic, maybe a little more thrill. i have mine, and they're doing a great job so far. i call them friends.

:)

holiday never ends. highschool do.

18 december 2009 - 5 january 2010

the best christmas and new year holidays i've had so far :)

and now it's over. i'm trying to salvage the last remnants of free time and stress-free state of mind, because pretty soon us highschool seniors are going to be mauled by a truckload of tests, assignments, and harrowing parents and teachers. all in the name of a brighter future! right? right.

i'm already missing waking up late and putting on a pair of unwashed denim shorts instead of my plaid uniform, and going out to meet my friends instead of sleeping in the car on my way to school.

however, i guess i have to enjoy all the time i have left in the classroom. because, come May, it will all be over. i'm certainly very eager to say byebye to my math textbook, but i don't know if i'm ready to leave high school.

just like i'm not ready to enter it again.

brittany murphy.

"I find this life so interesting."
Brittany Murphy
1977-2009

firsts of 2010

first song i gotta feeling - black eyed peas

first drink baileys

first food the cherry on top of my baileys

first wish love, and everything beautiful that comes with it

first reason to smile great friends, great time :)

first reason to cry
the things i've lost

first desire

wouldn't you like to know?

hello, 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!