the first quarter of 2010 was easily the most important period of my life so far. i went through it with a single determination in my mind: LET'S JUST GET THIS OVER WITH.
and now it's almost over.
after the end of next week, there will be no more burden, no more obligation, and no more worry for at least four months. after all, it's time for the super-long holiday. i've been looking forward to the late mornings and even later nights since the beginning of the school year. during classes, i have been dozing off planning about what to do in bali and in hawaii. true, now i am ecstatic that said holiday is almost upon me, but somehow i feel like i've been missing out. i have been so preoccupied that i missed the fun that i could have had in school. i could have stayed a moment longer after the bell, just to have a last-minute chat with my friends. i could have bought an extra bowl of meatballs in the cafeteria. i could have stayed awake through my last economy class.
"life is what happens when you are busy making other plans." - john lennon.
this makes me feel stupid. that is one of my favorite quotes ever, yet i have failed to live by it. but i guess this happens even to the bests of us. we look forward to sunny days while ignoring the scent of the rain around us.
so why don't we stop fretting about getting wet for a minute and look up? maybe look for the cracks in the cloud where the golden sunlight streams through, or maybe inhale the scent of the wet grass, or maybe admire how gray and muted everything seems.
who knows? maybe by appreciating how hard life is right now, i'll eventually find it fun to go through. it's like eating chili and enjoying how the stuff burns your tongue, right?
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